Luna: ‘And I don’t know who you are.’ ‘I’m nobody,’ said Neville hurriedly. – Harry Potter & the Order of the Phoenix by J.K. Rowling
I’m a geek. Most people may know or at least suspect that I’m a geek, but they don’t know the level of geek-ness that I have achieved. The geek card I’m laying down is not a +5 Supreme Knowledge or +4 Epic Costumes (though I have dressed up for the last 2 Ren Fests), but a +11 Spazzoid Mega-Love card.
Nothing turns my day around, bursts out a smile, makes me jump up & down, run a marathon with bunnies, bounce on clouds of marshmallow & marzipan, fly with the moon on my wings—well, I think you get the idea—more than an encounter with these objects of my geek girl heart. The worlds of Doctor Who, Lord of the Rings, Princess Bride, Firefly & Harry Potter do this for me.
One of the things that I think allows me to enjoy these stories is that I really get into them. I mean, I really get into them. I yell out warnings about every bad guy waiting in the shadows; I hold my breath through every watery tunnel as moral support. I’m swallowed up by the roller coaster of victories & defeats. But nothing really gets to me quite as much as the underdog. The Neville Longbottoms of the world who live as nobody, who struggle, win & lose on the sidelines. I wish I could be in the story, if only to include & encourage him.
Neville’s transformation from “Neville, the boy who kept losing his toad…” (HP & the Sorcerer’s Stone) to “ ‘I’ll join you when Hell freezes over.’ said Neville” (HP & the Deathly Hallows) while our eyes were on Harry. His story went on whether or not it was witnessed, just like in real life. The sword-wielding champion is epic, but his many flubs & foibles were a part of him, part of the reason that I love him, root for him, & cheer for him.
So I realized, if I can love something so eternally trivial as a fictional character from Harry Potter because of his goofiness & faults, why can’t I love the spastic, funny, drooly, kind person that God enables me to be? He laid +Infinity Spazzoid Mega-Love card down on me; His love should be what defines me. Therefore, my project for this week is not to say or think anything unkind to/about myself. This is going to be hard because if I mess up, it’ll be second nature to say/think something discouraging & thus continue the cycle. But I’m going to do my best & proceed with grace. If you hear me slip, please remind me. I’m only Neville after all 😉